I’ve felt blocked for months. I’m going to share and see what happens. That was my original intent anyway on this journey to personal power. There are times when I feel like I’m supposed to have answers for my life that I don’t have and so I get quiet.
Good, bad, ugly…I’m going to say where I am and how it’s affecting me. You’ll either judge me and go away, or you’ll relate, or you’ll have something encouraging to share.
The other day I saw an online article meant to induce panic. It gave the scenario of a woman becoming friends with a man she didn’t know on Facebook, thinking that she’d probably met him somewhere and forgotten. He seemed nice so she accepted his friend request. Later on when she shared a post of her child, he took that picture and offered it to his sex trafficking customers.
HOLD THE PHONE!
Needless to say I analyzed what I make public on my page and if I wanted to shut it down on the spot because it’s definitely not worth having one of my babies abducted over.
After calming down a little and further consideration, I thought about all of the millions of people using social media, including authors, bloggers, and YouTubers whose kids go un-abducted every day. With my overprotective nature, my kids will continue to be as safe as they’ve always been and I can keep sharing through this creatively satisfying process of blogging and Facebook posting.
Don’t let FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) keep YOU from enjoying what makes you happy. We can live in constant fear if we choose to, but fear and worry truly are misuses of our imaginations. Let’s use our minds to create a beautiful present moment, instead of worrying it away.
We’re all interconnected.
It seems like every time I’ve thought about shutting down my page, in moments of self doubt, fear, or guilt (feeling like I’ve taken way too much time from my family for this time consuming, zero income producing hobby)…anyway times like these are when POWERFUL women seem to step out of the shadows and send a message letting me know that they appreciate the page. That happened this morning and it’s always the boost I need to keep on keeping on. THANK YOU to those of you who have sent messages or made encouraging comments! I appreciate it more than you know!
It’s a mess, both literally and figuratively this week. I am surrounded by boxes. Four months ago we moved out of my brother in law’s house but didn’t move all of our stuff with us. He recently got married to a wonderful woman and moved out too. They’re selling his house and so we HAD to move the rest of our crap. Jason wanted to throw it all away but I objected, so now I have to deal with it all. I’m dealing with it by writing this post. That works, right?
Our personal mess is upstairs and one third of Jason’s business is downstairs as he transitions from one building to another. We’re up to our eyeballs in stuff. I said I was sharing the good, the bad, and the ugly. The following picture is of Jason’s goods, but they don’t look so good piled up in our downstairs living room. Parts of our house look like an episode of Hoarders.
Don’t even get me started.
I said I was sharing good, bad, and ugly so…
My marriage has suffered the last few months and a lot of the problem has been my thinking about our marriage. I’ve stirred pots and picked emotional scabs and…I started going to counseling a few weeks ago to break the cycle of my stinking thinking.
I’m a big fan of counseling. We went to family counseling over the summer a few times and I was geeking out. I LOVED IT and wondered why we hadn’t always been doing it. I think my enjoyment of family counseling had something to do with my enjoyment of my family. We’re all a bunch of goofballs and that means a lot of laughter, even in counseling. These family sessions were being filmed because the two counselors were still under supervision.. One day on the way home, my 15 year old admitted to giving the camera random glances like Jim in The Office.
That’s comedy my friends. I wonder what the “counselors in training” and their supervisor thought when they watched the video.
Back to marriage. Marriage is T-O-U-G-H but our lifelong friendship, love for our family, and mutual disgust with Donald Trump make the load lighter and the days brighter.
I’m still making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches in a factory. With Jason’s work picking up for the Spring and Summer, I’m able to go down to two days a week! Yay!!! That starts this week! I’m looking forward to helping him out, being home more, and having more energy to put toward creative projects and having the What One Person Can Do conversation with POWERFUL women. I actually have time to do that again!
The Future and Work
It’s up in the air. I’m still thinking about going back to school. I especially think about going back to school on Peanut Butter Jelly days. It’s just a matter of fitting all the pieces together.
Saturday we took a road trip. This is a normal event for us but it was not a normal day. In the history of road trips, this one’s going down in the books as one of the worst. Our girls were DIFFICULT. By the end of the trip, Jason and I decided we’d just go alone next time.
We set out to go to an exotic animal auction to see zebras and camels. We were about an hour late. SHOCKER! We paid $5 a head just to get in. We missed the exotic animals, but a couple there had a little capuchin with them. We did see a zdonk in with some plain old boring donkeys. We learned that one zebra sold for $10,000 and one of the camels sold for $20,000!!!
We watched a couple of miniature horses sell and walked around and looked at the normal animals. I don’t know llamas from alpacas, but I’m pretty sure it wanted to eat me.
I LOVE going places I’ve never been before and I LOVE taking the road less traveled. We saw some of the most beautiful scenery…giant hills and deep valleys and cows grazing on steep hillsides. As we were driving up and around one hill, there was a turn off onto another road. We could see that second road down below us, making a wider curve around the hill. It was such an interesting view of both roads. I wish I’d taken a picture.
As much yelling and fighting as our girls did, there was the usual laughter and fun too. Even though we came away from the road trip worn out and a bit frustrated, the experience wasn’t a total wash.
Why yes. That is a two headed doll that we lovingly refer to as Two Baby. Nora picked Two Baby out when she was four. He/she resurfaced during all of this moving of STUFF. The whole family is sentimental about Two Baby. #BoucherStyle
The girls’ rough housing earlier in the day was bad enough that Amelia’s new earring came out. When we got back into town, my boys accompanied the two of us to the mall to get her ear re-pierced. We ended up eating dinner at a sushi train.
That was a fun meal, even though Amelia dropped a WHOLE PIECE of sushi onto the floor!
My boys LOVE sushi! They DON’T love hanging out with their little sisters. Every day with 3 little sisters is like living our road trip over and over and over again, so this dinner was especially nice. Chuck played Paper Rock Scissors with Amelia and attempted to teach her how to use chop sticks. Sam took over while Chuck and I finished eating. They watched Youtube videos of animals to pass the time. I’m a REALLY slow eater and Chuck was going to get as much sushi out of the deal as he could.
The night ended with the purchase of a new laptop. I’ve been using the slowest computer known to POWERFUL woman kind. This new one is so speedy! Is it bad that I told Cortana to refer to me as YOUR HIGHNESS? Maggie helped me come up with that 🙂
And now after months of silence…you’re all caught up.
Thanks for reading this lengthy post. As I’m finishing it up, it seems fitting to end with the little things quote.
“Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.”
Wishing you a heart full of love for yourself (in addition to all of the other people you love) peace, and joy in the little things in your own life!