This is where I talk about myself in third person, as if someone else is telling my story.
Sarah has her head in the clouds and wears her heart on her sleeves.
She’s easily distracted and terribly forgetful, which keeps life interesting for those around her, no doubt.
Sarah loves everyone she meets and wants them to be deliriously happy in all aspects of their lives. She’s too trusting and could use a committee to keep her safe from herself and those with malicious intent. Sarah doesn’t believe anyone has evil intentions, thus the need for the committee.
Enough of that.
Lions and Tigers and Smokey The Bear
I was born into a very loving, slightly dysfunctional family.
My father was diagnosed with MS when I was four. As a result of his illness, I was an extremely fearful child. I was afraid of everything, from being poisoned to Smokey The Bear and house fires. The irrational fear followed me into my adulthood. Spring weather and daily tornado watches terrified me.
Thanks to the body of work Steve Chandler put into the world, I learned that fear and worry are misuses of my imagination, and I was able to put my chronic worrying ways behind me.
When Will My Reflection Show Who I Am Inside?
At 30, I tried so hard to figure out who I was. What details made me Sarah? What was my purpose? What was my story? Even now at 42, I can no more tell you who I am than I could back then, even though I feel a bit more wise in all my unknowing. I have stronger opinions anyway.
I birthed five babies. Two of them are now grown. All five of them truly love each other and don’t appear to hate me, so that feels like an accomplishment. I have loads of mom guilt and would do a million and one things differently if that were an option. Seeing as how it isn’t though, I take a deep breath when those guilty feelings arise and continue to move forward.
I’m living the single woman/single mom life. I floundered around in grief and turmoil for two and half years after my separation, before settling down into this peaceful solitude, with help from Byron Katie’s The Work and a Daily Self Care Practice from Bill Cumming.
Where I’m at in my thinking was always my goal for myself when I originally set out as a solo act instead of a duo. I’m excited to see where this Powerful Woman single life takes me.
I was a wife for so long. Wife and mother. It was all I’d known my entire adult life. It took me a long time to see that I can build something different than what I was so sure was my determined course. My happiness isn’t contingent on having a partner.
I’ll always be sad that Plan A fell apart, but Plan B is looking pretty intriguing. Byron Katie says, “It happened the way it was supposed to happen, because that’s the way it happened.”
What I do now is completely up to me.
It’s my intent to use this space to share the resources and experiences that have helped me get to this place of More Joy, More Peace, and More Power.
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